shenqiyingyuan

" I had a nanny," Song Yan blinked her eyes with a mocking curl of her lips. " She was …really weird, I didn\'t know why and how she became my nanny, all I know was that she was the daughter of my mother\'s nanny… and that was how she became my nanny once I was born, my brother grew up with our grandmother that is why that woman didn\'t look after him but I as the youngest one stayed with my parents…but the thing was that the two of them were so busy that they couldn\'t pay attention to me and in the end, I spent most of my childhood with that woman."

" And what about that?" Fang Yanli\'s confusion increased even further as she looked at Song Yan, were they not talking about the mania whisperer why were they suddenly talking about her nanny all of a sudden?

Song Yan raised her head and looked at Fang Yanli before smiling as she said, " The daughter of that nanny died when she was twenty-six, the woman …the one who was next to me was never alive but she felt like a human, do you know why?"

Fang Yanli and Zhou Yuan both shook their heads but then Zhou Yuan immediately raised his hand and said, " Isn\'t it because the woman was possessed by something?"

"No," Song Yan shook her head as she refused his suggestion. " That woman didn\'t die like most people would, she just sort of faded away."

" Faded away?" Fang Yanli\'s brows scrunched up.

" She was alive but at the same time she was dead …in short she was no longer human in the soul but a demon in the skin of a human," Song Yan remembered the smile of that woman, the one that spooked her even now. " Back then there was a very long case of serial killing running for almost twenty years and that woman was just twenty-six. Can you guess when she killed her first human?"

" When she was six years old…?" Zhou Yuan\'s eyes widened as he looked at Fang Yanli in alarm. " But how can a child kill someone? Wouldn\'t she be caught straight away?"

Song Yan raised a side of her mouth and shook her head. " She wasn\'t even born normal, she was born with a mysterious soul…that was neither human nor inhuman. Calling her demon would be wrong but calling her demon would be just as wrong—-"

" Yan Yan, I like a good thrill but I am not catching anything you are saying," Zhou Yuan raised a hand as he put a stop to Song Yan\'s babbling. " I guess you are shocked but at least make sure that what you are saying makes sense."

" There are cultivators who are obsessed with life, things that they want to hold on to, so instead of dying what they do is that take their soul and then instil it in the womb of a pregnant woman killing the soul of the child before it\'s even born." Song Yan threw her head back. " They are called mania whisperers, after staying alive for so long with the memories of their past life they gain a strange power… the power to control others with their voice."

She closed her eyes and those red lips whispering in her ears flashed in front of her eyes and she hurriedly opened her eyes. " Their obsession reduces them to a maniacal ghost, their very existence becomes proof of their obsession. That woman was similar to the mania whisperers … she stayed by my side because of my excess Yin energy and she would often whisper things in my ears."

" What kind of things?" Fang Yanli asked even though she felt a bit spooked.

" Happiness is a farce, if I can\'t get my happily ever after then no one deserves it either … that I was special, so special that should stay away from others lest I dwindle and lose what was special about me," Song Yan scratched the armrest of the couch. " Imperfection was a sin, those who were imperfect should be killed …. I remember now, I almost turned crazy under her constant whispering."

" But you had the jade bracelet, didn\'t you? The one that stopped the ghosts from coming closer to you, then why——"

" Mania whisperers are different from ghosts, they are neither alive nor dead, they are like the celestial masters walking in the path that lays between the two worlds and when did I say that she possessed me, she never possessed me… she just became a part of me by becoming the voice in my head."

Fang Yanli finally understood what Song Yan was saying and asked immediately, " You mean to say that they are like a hypnotist, that woman controlled you by her voice without possessing your body."

" Smart aren\'t you?" Song Yan smiled but her smile didn\'t reach her eyes.

" You also said that you killed someone then did you really…" Zhou Yuan didn\'t finish what he was saying after being glared at by Fang Yanli but Song Yan already heard him and she nodded her head.

" The kids in my class were scared of me because I will often talk to myself and among them was a kid who wasn\'t well scared of me, he got close to me despite my weirdness but then he was ostracised by others, and he couldn\'t withstand it and returned to his usual stance of ignoring me... I felt rather upset, I was still a child and I couldn\'t control my anger ..that was when that woman appeared and whispered in my head."

" I already know where this is going but you as well continue," Fang Yanli covered her face. " What did that woman say to you?"

" Kill," Song Yan spat out a single word as she turned to look in front of the wall turning her head away from Fang Yanli and Zhou Yuan\'s faces, already worried to see the same fear and terror that she has seen on Fu Yu Sheng\'s face. " And Fu Yu Sheng saw me kill that child."