Chapter 259: Chapter 259 Desperate Part 01.
However, despite having that much money, not a single thing in this world can satisfy me. I began to get bored, for I saw the world had turned bleak with no sense of color or entertainment.
Even though I said all of that, things have changed a bit recently. I shook my head to get rid of unnecessary thoughts in my head and headed to my mother\'s room. In my panicked state, I slammed open the door and shouted.
"Mama!".
Inside, I see my mother lying on the single bed with servants who are worried about her condition, tending to her illness.
From the corner of the room, on top of the small drawer beside her bed, I can see a basket containing a white cloth stained with blood.
My mother, also with a pale face, tries to hide her weakness by wiping her lips, which leaves a bit of a blood trail in the corners of her lips.
I swiftly approached her side while the servant made their way for me to settle beside her. Upon closer look, the blood had already smeared her clothes, and it made my heart clutched tight in pain.
However, despite having this conflicted thought in my heart, my mother just revealed her usual mischievous smile and tenderly caressed my hair like she used to. I can\'t hold back my tears anymore. My vision starts to blur, and tears start trailing on my cheeks.
This is the reality I must bear every time I go home and see my mother sitting in a wheelchair, suffering from her illness.
"Why are you crying sweetheart? I am fine as you can see".
No, you\'re lying. I know you said that to console me, who did everything on my part to find the cure for you.
But all that effort and struggle truly became pointless, as I never got one of my most desires, which was to cure you.
I can\'t bear to see her suffer any longer than this.
I began to switch my mind and wiped away the tears on my face, then stood up from my place.
"Sera, where are you going?".
"Mother, wait for me, I will definitely save you".
My mother swallowed her tongue back and, in full grief, looked at my back. I know what is on her mind; she may think that this was her fault for making her child\'s shoulder work at a young age, disregarding my own childhood and youth, only single-handedly searching for a cure for her.
But this is the path I choose for myself. I do not regret it in the slightest. Even though maybe this was fate that gave you that suffering, and you will be gone from me, I will never accept this outcome.
Once I stepped outside the room, I saw Violet await my arrival beside the door. She seemed to have heard what happened to my mother.
"Violet, called Soma to my room".
"Understood".
We went our separate ways as I weaved through the corridor of the house to reach my room.
My room was on the corner, with the best view of the field and scenery outside.
After entering, the interior had simple furniture, such as a twin bed and a huge closet. There are also shelves on the side of the wall where I used to place my favourite books and fiction.
I opened my closet to pick an appropriate dress to meet Soma. For this time, I will not be meeting him as Serafina but as Lawrence—my symbol of wealth. I changed into one of my favourite black dresses that enhanced my looks and settled my spirit for this occasion.
As soon as I finished with the change, I sat on the chair beside the window, giving me a whole picture of the beauty outside. I could feel it slowly, and my mind shifted back to how I used to act in public.
My once vibrant eyes lost their cluster of light, and my face turned stiff. My heart, which felt anxious a moment ago, now turned frozen as I see the world as nothing but mere stepping stones.
The door in my room knocked as I began to shift my seat position and closed my eyes.
"Come inside!".
"Excuse me!".
I could hear Soma\'s voice from that reply, so I steeled my heart once more to face him. Slowly, I opened my eyes.
"What is happening here? I thought you were having a fight with Senior Lucy but here you are dressing formally".
Without batting an eye at the conversation, he threw at me. I can hear him settle himself on the seat.
Then, I took a single piece of paper from my storage ring and a pen on top of the table before presenting it to Soma. I slide the paper and the pen in front of him.
"Write down your prices!".
"Huh!?".
As expected, he will need clarification on all of this.
"I want to buy your elixir, write the price yourself!".
"...".
I keep my glance lowered, not daring to see him head-on. I know what I am doing is despicable and wrong. But in the first place, this is my motive for getting close to him.
I plan to ensnare him with the least results but then become his companion and share some tough times together, creating an unbreakable bond that will open his heart.
But instead of that trickery, my heart was the one that opened. I thought he was just some cold and rude fellow the first time, but over time, I was drawn to his charm.
The way he is merciful toward his kinship ruthless toward his enemy, and willing to do everything to get everyone in his wings to safety. That made me feel secure to be beside him, and how he treated me poorly made me feel like I could become my true self.
However, there is one point I didn\'t like. When he shows so much attention toward Hina and Xiao Lian, at some point, I also thought, "I want to be in that part, too". But I was afraid to take the step because I had this goal to achieve in befriending him.
"...So, this was your goal all this time, huh?".
My heart thumped in worry, and the once-frozen heart I had created melted instantly, so Soma knew my thoughts all along. But this is not the place for me to waver. I gathered more resolve and saw his crimson and sharp eyes glaring at me.
From that point onward, I noticed that my body was slightly trembling, and all of the emotion I decided to lock deep inside for this moment started to crumble. But I held down and faced him directly.
"Yeah, so, like I said, I will buy your elixir and you can write down the price".
I saw him lower his gaze toward the cheque in front of him and sigh.
"I am sorry but…".
My whole world started to crumble as I heard his reply. The heart and trust that I tried to keep intact started to crumble, and my heart was filled with endless darkness, clouding my eyes.
"Is that so? Can you please reconsider? If you can\'t decide the prices, how about with assets? I will give you some of my assets with the highest income that…".
"...".
Soma silently shook his head to the side and leaned his body forward.
"... I see. I am sorry for taking your time. But don\'t worry it is true my plan is to buy your trust and elixir, but i will not throw you away from this mansion just because I couldn\'t get it so…".
"Is that how you see me?".